I believe. I believe in the power of the tongue.

~”Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits.”~Proverbs 18:21, ESV~

Words can either speak life or speak death over your life. As a child of God with bipolar disorder, I choose the words that I think and the words that I speak over my life. This is in order to build me up and not to tear me down.

I can say, “I will not accomplish my goal,” and remain in a stagnant or negative mindset or I can say, “I will accomplish my goal,” and move forward with a hopeful perspective.

A hopeful perspective, as a child of God with bipolar disorder, is a positive perspective. I press on towards my calling of the Lord, which is to serve the multitudes and the mentally-ill, through my writings as an author, in Christ Jesus.

A hopeful perspective, as a child of God with bipolar disorder, is a joyful countenance. I can be still and know that Jesus is my Joy, deep in my heart and deep in my soul, as I face trials and temptations that may come my way. As a child of God with bipolar disorder, I have already overcome the trials and temptations that come my way, in the Name of Jesus Christ.

In my first book to be released in February 2022, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” I talk about how I overcome my struggle with how to forgive my mother through the counseling process at my church. My counselor at my church takes me through the process of teaching me how to forgive my mother as I also learn to forgive myself in the process (My prayer is that if you are planning to buy a copy of my book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” in February 2022 that it will bless your heart, mind, and soul as you read the story of my testimony of how I forgave my mother as a result of the counseling process. I encourage you to make plans to buy this book, if you have not, and let it bless your soul!).

Lastly, a hopeful perspective, as a child of God with bipolar disorder, is peace of the Lord. In the midst of my ups and downs in my emotions (when I feel happy, sad, angry, etc.), I surrender my emotions to the Lord and let Him deal with them in exchange for peace of God in my heart and in my mind. Praise the Lord and Hallelujah!

~”Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope.”~ Romans 5:3-4, ESV~

Keep calm and press on towards a hopeful perspective today! God bless you and grace and peace!

The moon and the stars are going behind the clouds. The moon and the stars are going behind the clouds before I start to shine bright.

God is making me and preparing me for my moment to shine brighter than the moon and the stars before He decides to release my book to the public in February 2022. You may be reading this and wondering, “Sarah: What do you mean when you say this?”

When I make this declaration, I mean that God is doing a new thing in me before His Holy Spirit grants me permission to release my book in February 2022.

~”Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.”~ 2 Corinthians 5:17, ESV~

During my prayer time with the Lord recently, I had an open vision. As I was riding the bus from work, I had a vision about the moon and the stars, which I believe that God is using in terms of this open vision to talk to me about my destiny.

I noticed that in this open vision that I had that the moon and the stars were going behind the clouds. They shined brightly, but SO BRIGHT that the glory of God could not contain this glory of His Son, Jesus, behind the clouds.

At the end of the open vision, the moon and the stars came out from behind the clouds and shone brighter and brighter than when before they went behind the clouds.

This open vision and the meaning behind the open vision was majestic and magnificent as the Holy Spirit of God showed me that I will shine BRIGHTER than when I first began to write this first book to be released in February 2022, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil.’

The glory of God is SO MAJESTIC and it is also VERY MAGNIFICENT to behold! I cannot wait to see this new thing, this new book, that is being birthed in me and from me called, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” in February 2022!!

~”And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.” ~Romans 8:28, ESV~

It is AMAZING that God can use an open vision to put His glory on display all while communicating with me about the victory that shall be behind the successful birthing of my first book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil.” God uses ALL THINGS, including something so simple as the moon and the stars, to talk to me about my purposed and destiny! Glory to God and Hallelujah!

The moon and stars are going behind the clouds…the moon and the stars are going behind the clouds so that I AM can shine brighter in and through me once my book is published. To Jehovah be glorified!

**If you are planning to purchase a copy of my book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” it will be available in hardcover, paperback, and e-book in February 2022. Make plans for this new year to buy it and BE BLESSED by it! God bless you!

I press on. I press onward and into my calling and destiny.

My calling is to be an author for the multitudes. I am chosen by the Lord, for such a time is this, to be an author for the multitudes to read and to see my writing and to see the glory of the Lord put on display in the testimonies of my story. I knew about my calling to be an author when I was a child.

~”For many are called, but few are chosen.”~ Matthew 22:14, ESV~

When I was in the fifth grade, I wrote many stories. My fifth grade teacher would have described me as a very creative and imaginative child. I would write stories that included my friends and family members. Other times, I would write stories that came to me as I wrote, with my pencil and paper in hand.

There was one time time when my Kindergarten teacher asked me, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” I replied to my Kindergarten teacher, “I want to be an author.”

Did I want to be a nurse? No. Did I want to be a doctor? Absolutely not! I wanted to be an author.

Little did I know that when I reached my early adult years that I would be the news editor for Atlanta Christian Voice. Little did I know that God would want me to start this blog that I am writing now, “Sarah’s Spiritual Walk.” Little did I know that God would want me to begin writing my first book a few years ago.

My first book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” will be released in February 2022 and is a memoir and a testimony regarding my walk with the Lord, as a child of God with bipolar disorder, over the years of my life. The years that this book starts and ends begins with my early childhood and ends with me in my late twenties.

One reason that I am excited that this book is going to be released is because it will bring the light and love of Jesus Christ to those who struggle with and battle mental illness, on a daily basis. one goal of my book is to be the light and love of Jesus Christ to the multitudes. The story of my mental illness, I pray, will be the light and love of Jesus Christ as a witness of His light and love for me from my mental illness.

Another reason that I am excited that this book is going to be released is because it will be the hands and feet of Jesus Christ to the multitudes, who battle with mental illness, on a daily basis. I am expectant to see how the hands and feet of Christ will touch the multitudes, who battle with mental illness, as a result of the testimony, from the story behind my mental illness.

~”And how can anyone preach unless they are sent? As it is written: “How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news!”~Romans 10:15, NIV~

A final reason that I am excited for the release of my book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” is because it will allow for me to finally step into my calling, as an official author, of my first book, as those in the world celebrate and rejoice in me becoming an author and the authorship of my first book.

I invite you, children of God and those who do not know Jesus, to purchase a copy of my book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” once it is released in February 2022. In this way, you will be celebrating with me as I officially become an author of my first book and glorify God through my writing and story.

I press on. I press onward and into my calling and destiny, in the Name of Jesus Christ.

I am joyful. I am a joyful child of the King with bipolar disorder.

This Christmas season was difficult. One reason is because of my bipolar disorder and the challenges and circumstances surrounding it. I became more emotional and my emotions drew me closer to Him so that I could express my emotions more as the Lord above expressed His great love to me.

One way that the Lord expressed His great love to me this Christmas season was through prayer. Prayer drew me closer to the Lord as I made a connection to the Divine Almighty through this great outlet called prayer. The Lord gave me the opportunity to pray out my emotions to Him: my sadness, my anger, and the grief that I was experiencing as I told the Lord of my feelings.

~”The LORD hath appeared of old unto me, saying, Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee.”~ Jeremiah 31: 3, KJV~

The more that I prayed out my emotions to the Lord (especially on Christmas Eve), the more that I experienced the love of the Lord as the ultimate emotion that conquered all of my other emotions.

`’No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.”~ Romans 8: 37, NIV~

As I expressed my sadness to the Lord, this allowed for me to experience the love of God, as a child of God with bipolar disorder. Tears are normal and so is crying before the Lord in His presence. Crying allows for me, as a child of God with bipolar disorder, to express my deepest thoughts and words before the Lord that make me sad.

Part of learning to let go is learning how to process sadness. This is one of the ways that I became content before the presence of the Lord. In this way, I experienced the overwhelming love of Jehovah.

As I expressed my anger to the Lord, I learned to let go of the resentment that I felt, particularly towards my friends from college and family members (I have forgiven them, but it is especially hard for me during Christmas to not think about the hurt that they caused me. I talk more in my book to be released in February 2022, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” about how I learned to set boundaries with my friends from college as a result of the hurt that they caused me out of my pain and in surrender to the Lord as the Lord showed me how to forgive them. Please consider buying this book if you are already thinking about buying it!)

Overall, I experienced the love of the Lord through learning to journal out my feelings of anger towards my friends from college and my family members. Part of learning to let go is learning healthy and Godly ways to process anger, especially through journaling and prayer. In this way, I still experience the overwhelming love of Jehovah in His presence (even at Christmas time!!)

A I expressed the grief that I felt to the Lord, I learned to LET GO, LET IT GO, and to LET GOD draw near to me, especially during this Christmas time. Going on nature walks is one way that I die to my sadness and anger that I feel and let the love of God cover my heart as I process the grief that I feel around this Christmas time. In this way, I always feel the love of God carrying me and drawing me nearer and nearer to Him: Jesus, that is.

My love for Jesus has grown over the years as a result of learning to let go and let God work in and on my heart and heal my mind. As a result, I feel myself drawing closer to Jesus as I step deeper and deeper into His presence and let the heart of God run red over me.

The blood of Jesus runs red for me, as a child of God with bipolar disorder, this Christmas season and I pray that You will let it run red for you too and for your loved ones in your home this Christmas too! Merry Christmas everyone!!

I had a vision. I had an open night vision.

~“And it shall come to pass afterward, that I will pour out my Spirit on all flesh; your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, your old men shall dream dreams, and your young men shall see visions.”~Joel 2:28, ESV~

During my prayer time with the Lord, I had an open vision that I was a dandelion. The dandelion shed its seeds and turned into a white rose. The rose eventually shed its white petals and I offered the white petals to those in the world to look at, behold, and marvel the white petals of the flower that I presented to them with my hands.

Some in the world accepted the white petals while others in the world rejected them. As I prayed to the Lord and inquired of Him of the meaning behind this open night vision, the Holy Spirit showed me that the dandelion represents the old version of me while the white rose and its white petals represent the new me in Christ as the Holy Spirit of God is preparing me for the release of my book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil.”

~”Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.”~2 Corinthians 5:17, ESV~

I believe that this open night vision has to do with the release of my upcoming book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” and that not everyone will accept the message and the message of Christ behind my book. This is solely because in the vision, there were people that I saw in the vision that rejected me, as the representation of the white rose petals.

The people who accepted me, as the representation of the white rose petals, were my supporters and people who I know who I am connected with today. As a child of God with bipolar disorder, people will love me. As a child of God with bipolar disorder, people will hate me for no reason. The Holy Spirit of God is preparing me for my supporters and is also preparing me for those that do not support me.

This is very profound because of past rejection that I have faced in the past, especially as it relates to my friends from college (I talk about his very extensively in my upcoming book and how the Lord gave me the strength to move forward through counseling from my church and to overcome them and their choice to reject me). While I am used to people rejecting me, I am also used to people loving me too.

This love is a new kind of love that only the hands and feet of Christ could give me: both, to my supporters and to those that do not support me. Jesus loves me. Jesus also loves everyone, even if they choose to not love Him back. This is the new Way of love that the Holy Spirit of God is teaching me as Jehovah prepares me for the release of my book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil.”

The Lord has great plans for my future and is molding me and making me prepared and ready for the release of my book to be published in February 2022.

~”But in your hearts honor Christ the Lord as holy, always being prepared to make a defense to anyone who asks you for a reason for the hope that is in you; yet do it with gentleness and respect.”~1 Peter 3:15, ESV~

My supporters may love me and those who do not support me may hate me without a cause, but I am ready to defend the reason for this hope that is in Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior, as my book is to be published in February 2022.

This is my message for everyone reading this blog post: prepare and make ready! My white rose petals are going to be shared with the world through the extravagant love of Jesus and so is my story. God bless you and Merry Christmas!!

You give life. You gave me the gift of eternal life that is Jesus Christ.

Not many people know that my birthday falls exactly three months after Christmas Day (March 25th). However, I want to use this blog post to focus on the birth of Jesus and His impact on my life before my birthday is to begin in the year of 2022.

~”For no word from God will ever fail.”~ Luke 1:37, NIV~

As a child of God with bipolar disorder, the impact that the birth of Christ has had on my life is significant. This is because the birth of Christ is a symbolic reminder for me, that Jesus came to this earth to die for my bipolar disorder.

God the Father sent His only begotten Son, Jesus Christ, to be born for me in a manger and to be born for my bipolar disorder so that He could die for my bipolar disorder.

Even though I know that my bipolar disorder is not curable, I trust that God knows what is best for my life and how His Holy Spirit intends to use me in spite of my bipolar disorder. The birth of Jesus Christ reminds me that He was born for me so that my bipolar disorder can become a testimony through my book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” to be released in February 2022.

My testimony through this book connects with and relates with my birthday because I consider myself to be a miracle child. The difference between myself and Christ Jesus is that Jesus is the ONLY miracle child that was born to die to save the world and I am a miracle child because of the manner and the way that I was born and how the Lord desired to use me, even after I was born.

~”Delight yourself in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart. ~Psalm 37:4, ESV~

At the moment of my birth on March 25th, 1991, the doctors had to turn me over. This was because I was upside down. If I was not turned upside down, this would have led to greater complications during my birth. It is because of this instance (and because of the fact that I was born early, that I consider myself to be a miracle baby with a purpose for Christ the Lord). In spite of my complications at birth, the Lord still had a purpose and a plan for me.

Little did I know that the birth of Christ would be significant to me because His birth is a symbolic reminder for me that Christ was born for me so that I could testify of the Lord’s goodness to me in spite of my bipolar disorder. This is the desire that the Lord God has placed on my heart: to be a delight to the multitudes in spite of my bipolar disorder and in spite of the complications that I faced at birth.

The handiwork of the Lord is amazing and even though I will be thirty-one years old on March 25th, 2022, His work for me is not finished yet and the Way that He wants to use me in spite of my bipolar disorder is not finished until Christ says, “It is finished!”

Christ’s birth touched me at the moment that I was born on March 25th, 1991. It will continue to touch me until the good Lord calls me home and at that moment, His work in me will be complete.

Hallelujah and Amen!

I have wounds. I have mental wounds, emotional wounds and spiritual wounds. 

It is hard, especially during the Christmas season, to forget these wounds that others have inflicted on me over the years. But, it is the saving grace of my Lord and Savior, King Jesus, that has caused me to extend the hand of forgiveness to those that hate me and despise me for no reason. This has allowed me to experience the healing hand of God in my life in beautiful ways. 

~”He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” ~Psalm 147: 3, NIV~ 

I remember when I went to the hospital one year ago because of suicidal thoughts and other issues that I was dealing with at the time. I met a lady at the hospital, who had many spiritual and mental issues that of which I can relate. One, being that she was very resentful to everyone who she crossed paths with, including me, and I did nothing wrong to this human being, but be kind to her.  Two, her attitude changed once she had an encounter with the God that I serve, Jesus Christ, as a result of her meeting me.

The Holy Spirit of God showed me, in that moment, that in order for me to be the healing hand of God, the light of God and the love of Christ in this woman’s life that I needed to put my baggage aside and smile and be kind back to her. This is because being kind is a demonstration of the love of Christ in the lives of His people. 

~”Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.”~Ephesians 4:32, ESV~ 

When this woman stated mean remarks to me as I ate my lunch a few times at the hospital commons area, I responded with kindness. When this woman screamed and shouted at me before I took a shower, I reacted with kind words. When this woman accused me of doing wrong when, in fact, I did nothing to intentionally hurt this woman, I continued to be kind to her. 

After these few episodes of witnessing this woman’s unkind words and remarks to me, she eventually apologized to me and told me that I was inspiring to her to empower and help her to be kind, even in the midst of unkindness. This was definitely evidence of the Lord’s working power working to heal this woman’s broken heart and mind, and His Holy Spirit used me to be the healing touch of God in her life when she needed me to be, even though it was not expected in return.   

I left the hospital with a fresh perspective on the mentally ill and on how the Holy Spirit of God wants to use me in the days ahead, especially with the release of my book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” in February 2022. This book sheds light on my life experiences, as a child of God with bipolar disorder, and talks about the counseling experience that I went through, at my church, to experience healing, help and hope through the counseling ministry at my church.  

If you are interested in wanting to learn more about my book, feel free to message me on my Facebook or Instagram accounts @sarahdickensauthor. Thank you kindly everyone for reading  this blog post and may it bless your heart, mind and soul. God bless you!  

I am thankful. I am thankful to God, in the Name of Jesus Christ.

I recently lost my job and had to find another job quickly. Luckily, I found another job in the telemarketing field as God provided me with the job, in the Name of Jesus Christ.

~”And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.” ~Philippians 4:19, NIV~

I wondered to God how He would provide the remaining funds that I need to get my book published. This is because I make monthly payments to get my book published so that the publishing process of my first book can continue, in the Name of Jesus Christ.

My first book to be published, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” is one of Godly courage and of valiance for Jesus. It is a story that tells about my life experiences, as a child of God with bipolar disorder, from my early childhood years up until the age of 28 years old. It is a story that serves to glorify God in spite of the challenges surrounding my bipolar disorder.

God uses my bipolar disorder diagnosis to glorify Him through my story, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil.” God uses my bipolar disorder diagnosis to showcase the love of God for all people. God uses my bipolar disorder diagnosis to share the light of His Son, Jesus Christ, with the multitudes, in the Name of Jesus Christ.

Now that my book will be back on track to be published by the end of 2021, I cannot wait to see how God will work in and through my first book and the publishing of my first book to bring glory to God as well as to divinely inspire the multitudes!

~”You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden.”~ Matthew 5:14, ESV~

I am excited to see how the Lord will work in and through me to be His light to the multitudes, who read my book, in the Name of Jesus Christ! I am confident that God will use me to be His light to the multitudes, who read my book, in the Name of Jesus Christ!

To God be the glory in and through, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” in the Name of Jesus Christ!

I am thankful and grateful to God for the release of my first book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil.”

As stated in previous blog posts, my first book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” will be released by the end of 2021 (either November or December 2021 at the latest). It shall be a blessing to the multitudes, who read it, in the Name of Jesus Christ. God is good!

~”Then will appear in heaven the sign of the Son of Man, and then all the tribes of the earth will mourn, and they will see the Son of Man coming on the clouds of heaven with power and great glory.” ~Matthew 24:30, ESV~

I had an open vision this morning concerning my first book. I saw eleven stars in the sky, falling to all four corners of the earth in order to preach the Word of God that is my testimony to all four corners of the earth. This night vision that I had is very powerful!

I believe that the eleven stars represent the eleven chapters of my first book to be published and that the four corners of the earth represent the entire globe. This means that my book shall preach and teach as it goes global and reaches all of the earth, in the Name of Jesus Christ.

My book is a memoir about my struggle with bipolar disorder and how I overcame it through the help of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ (from a spiritual standpoint and not a physical standpoint), and through Christian counseling from a Christian counselor of my church.

In my book, I cover how my bipolar disorder diagnosis is like my own cross that I am to carry every day. I explain that my mental illness is being used by God to bring Him glory, as well as His Son, Jesus Christ, and how He sees fit for eternity. My book covers my early childhood years up until the end of 2019.

I also explain in my book how even though my mental illness incurable, God is still able to use me, by the power of His Holy Spirit, to bring His Son, Jesus, glory. It is incurable, in this life, but I am already healed because I believe that when I go to Heaven someday that I will be free from the suffering caused by my bipolar disorder.

Also, my mental illness has environmental and biological factors, which is why it is not curable in this lifetime, but I will and am healed when I reach Heaven and into Eternity.

I pray that the testimony of my first book shall bless you to know Jesus and His heart deeper and more intimately through the struggle of my mental illness. It is through the struggle and out of my pain from the circumstances surrounding my mental illness that God is glorified, in the Name of Jesus Christ.

To God be the glory!

A couple of days ago, I created a blog post that explains that my first book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” is going to be published by the end of 2021. My publishing specialist for Christian Faith Publishing told me this a few days ago. I thank the Lord for this good news!

~”And how are they to preach unless they are sent? As it is written, “How beautiful are the feet of those who preach the good news!”~Romans 10:15, ESV~

My book is a memoir. It is a testimony of the work of Jesus Christ in my life, as a child of God with bipolar disorder. The span of my book goes from my early childhood up until my twenty-eighth year and testifies of how the Lord Jesus Christ is working in and through my life through the hardships that I face, as a child of God with bipolar disorder.

I mention in the book that my mental illness does not define me because of the salvation power that I have in Jesus Christ. Even though bipolar disorder is a part of who I am because I was born with it, it does not define me because of my relationship with Jesus Christ.

I mention several topics of discussion in my first book. The first topic that I will mention here very briefly (because I do not want to give too much away without you going to read the book first) is my relationship with my mother, who also has a diagnosed mental illness. I go into depth of my relationship with her as well as the biological and environmental factors of the results of living with a parent diagnosed with mental illness that affected me, mainly during my adolescent years.

I will not mention the biological and environmental factors of my mental illness because this gives you, as the reader, the empowerment and desire to want to find out more of the work of God in my life (how he worked in and through those various biological and environmental factors of my life), so that you can GO and READ my book and not ask me questions now!

I also talk about how my mother introduced me into a relationship with Jesus Christ in the first part of the book before my mental illness became more noticeable in my adolescent years. I talk about how happy and joyful that my early childhood years were with the Lord because He really started to test me in how serious I was in following Him after my adolescent years and years in college as a result of my mental health diagnosis.

~”Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds.”~James 1:2, ESV~

This is because my mother greatly influenced me and my walk with God during my early childhood years. She faced many challenges as a result of the circumstances surrounding her mental illness and as a result, this greatly impacted my walk with the Lord many years later.

My story of, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” is one of boldness and great courage in the Lord. It is one of good times spent with the Lord Jesus and bad times spent with the Lord Jesus. It all depicts my faith in Him through the various struggles over the years surrounding my mental illness.

I am very grateful to the Lord for being able to use me, in spite of the the challenges that I faced surrounding my bipolar disorder diagnosis, and how the Holy Spirit of God was able to put His Word in my mouth to explain clearly how God brought me closer to the heart of Jesus as a result of my mental illness.