I am blessed. I am blessed in the Lord.

I am blessed in the Lord because I was born as a daughter of the King. Praise Immanuel and Hallelujah!

I am blessed in the Lord because I am loved by the King of kings and Lord of lords. Praise Immanuel and Hallelujah!

I am blessed in the Lord because He favors me, from glory to glory. Praise Immanuel and Hallelujah!

~”Because it is written, Be ye holy, for I am holy.”~1 Peter 1:16, KJV~

I am a daughter of the King. Therefore, I am blessed in the Lord. Praise Immanuel and Hallelujah!

I am loved by the King of kings and Lord of lords. Therefore, I am blessed in the Lord. Praise Immanuel and Hallelujah!

The Lord favors me, from glory to glory. Therefore, I am blessed in the Lord. Praise Immanuel and Hallelujah!

I am blessed. I am blessed in the Lord.

I love You. Lord: I love You.

I love You because You are a gracious God. Praise the Lord and Hallelujah!

I love You because You are a loving God. Praise the Lord and Hallelujah!

I love You because You are a compassionate God. Praise the Lord and Hallelujah!

~”O give thanks unto the Lord; for he is good: for his mercy endureth for ever.”~ Psalm 136:1, KJV~

You are a gracious God. Therefore, I love You. Praise the Lord and Hallelujah!

You are a loving God. Therefore, I love You. Praise the Lord and Hallelujah!

You are a compassionate God. Therefore, I love You. Praise the Lord and Hallelujah!

I love You. Lord: I love You.

After having many up and down battles with my health, the enemy, and myself, I am making the decision to return to Liberty University online to finish and complete my Master of Arts degree in Clinical Mental Health Counseling.

I have been out of school for one year (since the Summer 2021). After having a seizure in the Fall 2021 as well as up and down battles with my emotions surrounding my bipolar disorder, I made the decision to quit….well, temporarily. God always has His way of surprising us, including me.

~”For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.”~ Isaiah 55:8-9, ESV~

I currently work at a center that assists children with special needs, both mental and physical health challenges. A coworker came up to me (which I believe was a sign from God and that she was sent by God to talk to me), and asked me, “Don’t you have two Master’s degrees?”

“Yes, I have two Master of Arts degrees in Global Studies and Pastoral Counseling,” I said. “I went to seminary school for two years and was in the process of getting my third Master’s degree and first non-Seminary school-related degree. After things that happened during the Coronavirus pandemic to me, I just stopped.”

My coworker looked at me very sternly and said to me with such determination in her voice, “Don’t give up.”

I looked at her and stared. Then, I began to remember the reason why I wanted to become a counselor (that is what the degree in Clinical Mental Health Counseling would be for), and thought about the divine impact that my friend from my church had on me to become a counselor. I seemed to have buried that dream in the ground and decided to forget about it over time.

A lot of time has passed since the Summer 2021 and since my seizure in October 2021 and up and down battles with emotions related to my bipolar disorder, I used these two factors as an excuse for me to abandon my dream and give up.

Those words, “Don’t give up,” have power….those words, “Don’t give up,” also have meaning…those words, “Don’t give up,” spoke directly to my spirit as a sign from God to remember, not forget my dream to become a counselor, and, most importantly, to not give up.

God was not pleased with me for choosing to disobey Him and my calling. I had to repent to the Lord (I did this yesterday) for disobeying Him and pretending as if my dream meant nothing…that the words that I told my friends from church, that, “I want to be a counselor,” don’t have meaning. Faith without carrying out the promises of God are dead to me and a dream deferred makes my heart ill and this is all because I chose to disobey God and not fulfil my calling to study and complete my degree in Clinical Mental Health Counseling. God really did use my coworker to surprise me!

~”For as the body apart from the spirit is dead, so also faith apart from works is dead.”~ James 2:26, ESV~

~”Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a desire fulfilled is a tree of life.”~ Proverbs 13:12, ESV~

No longer am I going to give permission to let my mental health diagnosis determine that I cannot become a counselor. No longer am I going to give permission to let the ups and downs in my emotions determine that I cannot become a counselor. No longer am I going to let my past seizure that I had in October 2021 determine that I cannot become a counselor.

I shall become a counselor. I will become a counselor. This is a dream that God put on the inside of me that will give birth. No weapon or attacks from the enemy to my calling shall succeed, in the Name of Jesus Christ.

Greater is my portion. I refuse to let my mental health diagnosis cripple me or permit it to cripple me from making poor choices. I am free indeed, by the power of the Holy Spirit.

I repent for disobeying God. I repent for not walking in the direction of my calling. I repent for avoiding the voice of the Holy Spirit of God. I walk with Jesus. He is my source of strength in Christ alone.

I won’t forget…I shall not give up…I will remember those words and their divine impact on me: “Don’t give up.”

I thank the Lord for using my coworker to speak to me. This was a divine set up.

The last words that I spoke, in my conversation with my coworker were: “You were a confirmation from God to me to go back to school. Thank you for words of encouragement to me today!”

My coworker said nothing, but smiled at me. God accomplished His purpose for me that day. I shall not want. Victory is my portion. I won’t give up. Never ever will I give up. NEVER!!!!!!

Thank you everyone for reading this blog post. Grace, peace, and many blessings to all of you!

It’s a new day for me, as a child of God.

~”This is the day which the Lord hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.”~ Psalm 118:24, KJV~

I have put the past behind me. I am moving forward. I am rejoicing with my hands lifted high. I am moving forward. I am walking straight ahead with my eyes looking forward. I am moving forward. And I refuse to look back.

You may be wondering why I am making these statements of victory. It is because I have a lot to rejoice and be thankful to the Lord for in my life. I am thankful to the Lord for being alive. I am thankful to the Lord that I am no longer friends with my friends from (yes, I said this, and if you read a previous blog post, then you will understand why I said this). The Lord God is ordering my steps and I am so thankful that He is ordering my steps as a woman of purpose and destiny in Jesus Christ.

Later on this year (from the end of November to the beginning of December 2022), I will be going on a trip to Israel. I will be going to Israel for the sole purpose of touring the country. I will be meeting new friends and experiencing new things as I go on this trip of a lifetime. I am really excited for what the Lord has planned for me regarding the trip to Israel.

I will be touring the land that Jesus walked. I will be walking on the land that Jesus walked. I will be walking hand in hand with my boyfriend and we will be touring the Holy Land of Israel together (Yes, I said this).

I recently met my boyfriend through an online website and we are just getting to know each other. He is a follower of Jesus too and is very sweet, kind, and humble. He is also very attractive and works for a nonprofit and lives in the Netherlands. We will be meeting in Israel at the end of this year. Praise the Lord for this good news!

~”And how shall they preach, except they be sent? as it is written, How beautiful are the feet of them that preach the gospel of peace, and bring glad tidings of good things!”~ Romans 10:15, KJV~

My boyfriend suggested that we meet in Israel (there is a possibility that we will be meeting before the Israel trip and that he will come to visit me in the US, but that is still being worked out).

I cannot wait to walk, hand in hand, with my boyfriend in Israel. What a moment that will be! I praise and thank God for this good news!

Thank you for reading this blog post and grace and peace!

Dear God,

I thank You for the National Day of Prayer 2022. The National Day of Prayer 2022 is a day, where America and all countries of the world can come together to pray in the Name of Jesus Christ. I pray for President Joe Biden as he leads our country in future decisions regarding the war with Ukraine and interactions with Vladimir Putin. I pray for the upcoming decision that the Supreme Court is making regarding abortion and that the Supreme Court will not continue to legalize abortion so that more babies are not killed, in the Name of Jesus Christ. I pray that Your Holy Spirit will continue to bless America and guard her heart and mind with protection, as her portion. I pray that You will bless my friends and family, near and far, and that those who do not know You as Lord and Savior will trust You into their lives today. I give You all of the glory, the honor, and the praise.

In Jesus’ Name,

Amen!

I recently spoke to a close friend via telephone regarding a decision that I was trying to make concerning my friends from college: whether to rekindle the friendships or to let to them go to the Lord. God always has His way of surprising us. His Holy Spirit provided me with wisdom and a sound mind, as my portion, to make the right decision: to let to them go and away to the Lord and away from me as they do not point me to Christ in this season that I am in my life.

~”Ponder the path of thy feet, and let all thy ways be established.”~ Proverbs 4:26, KJV~

~”For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.”~2 Timothy 1:7, KJV~

The reason why the friendships from college do not point me to Christ in this particular season that I am in my life is because God used them for their given purpose when I was in college: to minister who Jesus is to me then. But, now that the friendships are no more to me, they have served their purpose as seasonal friendships and not lifetime friendships. Therefore, we are not destined by the Lord to remain as friends.

In a previous blog post, I talk about how I met a friend at a job fair. She claims that this was a meeting that was ordained by God, but I disagree because she did not contact me the time during that we were apart for many years. For this reason, I do not believe that she is being truthful or honest with me about what she claims that she knows about the argument with my other two friends from college. Since she claims that she does not know anything about the argument with the other two friends, why did she mention it (This is a rhetorical question)?

This caused me to question her and her motives for wanting a friendship with me. This is why I have made the decision that I have made to not be friends with her or any of my friends from college anymore. It is done. The decision is final.

This was because of an argument that I got into with two of the other friends from college that I knew for five years. Because of the disagreement and things that both sides (mine included) said and did, I am reaping what I have sown for sinning against my friends from college.

My friend, who I spoke with from the church, told me that the friendships from college are no longer applicable to me in this season of my life because they do not point me to Jesus. They are not productive and worth my time to me and they are not productive and worth my time to the Lord because they do not glorify God nor do they point to Jesus in the present now.

My friend from the church, who gave me this perspective, showed me a new way to think about and consider the friendships that I once had that I never thought of before. I am not saying that the friendships never pointed me to Christ because they once did. But now that they chose to not contact me for this whole, entire period of five to seven years, what good do they contribute to my calling, purpose, and destiny, as a child of God (this is a rhetorical question)?

I am stronger, as a child of God. I am much wiser, as a child of God. I am also very discerning in who to pick to be my close circle of friends more so than I was when I was a student in college.

Can anyone be my friend. No. Can I accept what everyone tells me to be the truth and nothing but the truth?? Nope. Can I trust everyone to be my friend? No way.

My friends from college were not gracious to me in giving me another chance to be their friend. They did not contact me for this period of five to seven years, which gives me a reason to know that my friend that I ran into at the job fair was not being honest with me about what she knows about the argument. And I had to make peace with God about her dishonesty with me and for choosing to not be a friend to me for all of these years.

When she stated, “This meeting was set up by God,” I disagree and not only that: I believe that it was a test from the enemy to see if I would let her, as well as my other college friends, be a distraction to me and to my calling, purpose, and destiny, as a child of God.

~”I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.”~ Galatians 2:20, KJV~

~”No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgement thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, and their righteousness is of me, saith the Lord.”~ Isaiah 54:17, KJV~

This spiritual weapon that the enemy used to distract me from my calling shall not win me from my calling, my purpose, nor my destiny. I am a child of God and the decision that I made to not continue in the friendships that I once had stands: I shall not want. I will not give into temptation. I listen to the Holy Spirit, which is the still voice of God in me.

I pause….I stop….and I listen to His voice for direction as I still myself in His presence and no other, in the Name of Jesus Christ.

~”Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.”~ Psalm 46:10, KJV~

His voice is calm. His voice is peace. His voice is still. Therefore, I stop and listen to the Holy Spirit, which is the voice of God, for direction and decisions to make.

Thank you for reading this blog post and grace and peace to you!

I can count on Jesus. I can count on Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior of my life.

I can count on Jesus because His love reigns. Praise God and Hallelujah!

I can count on Jesus because His power is majestic. Praise God and Hallelujah!

I can count on Jesus because His mercy endures forever. Praise God and Hallelujah!

~”For it is written, As I live, saith the Lord, every knee shall bow to me, and every tongue shall confess to God.”~Romans 14:11, KJV~

The love of Jesus reigns forever. Praise the Lord and Hallelujah!

The power of Jesus is majestic. Praise the Lord and Hallelujah!

The mercy of Jesus endures forever. Praise the Lord and Hallelujah!

I can count on Jesus. I can count on Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior of my life.

I praise the Lord. I praise the Lord on this day.

This day is a day that is special unto the Lord. Praise the Lord and Hallelujah!

This day is a day that is profound unto the Lord. Praise the Lord and Hallelujah!

This day is a day that is notable unto the Lord. Praise the Lord and Hallelujah!

~”This is the day which the Lord hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.”~Psalm 118:24, KJV~

The Lord has presented unto me a special day. Praise the Lord and Hallelujah!

The Lord has presented unto me a profound day. Praise the Lord and Hallelujah!

The Lord has presented unto me a notable day. Praise the Lord and Hallelujah!

I praise the Lord. I praise the Lord on this day.

Yesterday, something profound happened to me.

~”And he who was seated on the throne said, “Behold, I am making all things new.” Also, he said, “Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.”~ Revelation 21:5, ESV~

I went to a job fair yesterday. I went to the job fair with the intention of finding a job and not to see, meet, or even run into anyone. I ran into an old friend from college.

Now, we have not spoken in years. This is because of a disagreement that I got into with other friends in the same group, which left me to go on the path that the Holy Spirit was leading me to go since the year of 2017: separation from the Body of Christ (the friends from college) and solitude with the Lord.

~”We are confident, I say, and willing rather to be absent from the body, and to be present with the Lord.”~ 2 Corinthians 5:8, KJV~

There are things that have been left unsaid among my friends and me. I have missed out on many things with my friends, such as spending weddings, holidays, and other things together because of my committed sins. I am not perfect, by any means, but God is good because He has redeemed me by His grace.

The one thing I did gain from this experience of not seeing this friend or any of my friends from college for years was a stronger sense in my calling, purpose, and destiny, as an author and advocate for children, all while developing and maintaining a stronger relationship with Jesus. I also found that my approval DOES NOT come from this friend or any of my friends from college based off of my sins committed or what they think of me, but in my relationship and walk with God.

The friend that I saw yesterday saw me at the train station and walked towards me to say, “Hello.” I told her, “Hello,” back and we went to the job fair together.

We talked about many things. We even exchanged phone numbers. I do not know if I will ever hear from this friend again or any of my other friends from college, but I am thankful for this short meeting with the friend from college and for catching up on life together. I am taking this moment, as I reflect, on to praise the Lord and thank Him for this meeting as I was not expecting to see this friend from college again.

If I hear from her again, I will be happy. If I do not hear from her, I will be happy because being apart from this friend, as well as my other friends from college, has allowed me to discover my worth and that my worth comes from the Lord Jesus Christ and no one else. I have learned a lot of valuable lessons, over the years, and God has humbled me, by His grace, to seek Him and not men or women for approval or direction first.

I am stronger. I am wiser. I am more discerning of who I can and cannot trust. I am now in a period of learning of who I can and cannot trust. Not everyone is your friend, as I am learning, from the inflicted wound of two of the friends from college in 2017, a year I will not forget, but have surrendered to the Lord, as I heal in Him.

In fact, I am still learning if I can trust this friend from college that I ran into yesterday. God is redeeming the time and showing me. I cannot help, but wonder if this was a divine set up from the Lord OR that it could be a test from the Lord OR it could be both a divine set up and a test from the Lord.

Is this friend for me? Time will tell and God will show me, even if I don’t find out right away. I am not saying that I hope that this friend wishes ill will or bad things to happen to me, but I am a firm believer in the art of reaping and sowing.

I sinned against two of my friends. I have reaped the consequences of my actions. I attempted to mend things with the friends and they seemed to not receive or be receptive of me, even during the many times I tried to contact them. My prayer is that if it is God’s will that they will see that I have become a better person, but that does not mean that I let any one, including these two friends, take advantage of me and my kindness.

I do not know if the friend I met from college yesterday will contact me again. As stated, time will tell as her intentions for me are revealed and unfold. I enjoyed the time spent with the friend from college, even if it was our last moment together. God is faithful all of the time, whether I gain or lose reputation, value, or friends or family members that once loved me for the sake of my relationship with the Lord.

~”For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain.”~ Philippians 1:21, KJV~

Even if this was my last moment with this friend, time will tell as the Lord guides me. I pray and wish this friend and all of my friends from college the best. I am thankful for yesterday.

Thank you for reading this long and lengthy blog post. Grace and peace to all reading it!

God is good. God is so good.

God is good because He is constantly watching over me. Praise the Lord and Hallelujah!

God is good because He is constantly loving on me. Praise the Lord and Hallelujah!

God is good because He is constantly sharing His good news with me. Praise the Lord and Hallelujah!

~”And blessed is she that believed: for there shall be a performance of those things which were told from the Lord.”~ Luke 1:45, KJV~

God is constantly watching over me. Therefore, He is good. Praise Jehovah and Hallelujah!

God is constantly loving on me. Therefore, He is good. Praise Jehovah and Hallelujah!

God is constantly sharing His good news with me. Therefore, He is good. Praise Jehovah and Hallelujah!

God is good. God is so good.